Happy New Year, everybody!
Happy New Year, especially Little K!
Little K – you just stood up and took ownership of what you’ve really been doing all evening, instead of either hiding or lying to yourself and the people you feel certain you’ve let down.
I was hiding all evening, fucking around on the computer, not even writing, or doing anything “productive” or even creative – just playing solitary games, and
debating putting off getting dressed and going to a party that I really wanted to go to, up until about 5 o’clock, when I got all nervous and insecure and cold and hungry, and I didn’t make the Choice: I simply Didn’t Choose. No *decision* made, I simply puttered until there wasn’t enough time left.
I’ve done that to myself for 50+ years – WTF??
I’m not particularly proud of *what I stood up about* – but I am definitely proud *that I stood up* at all! Progress, yes? YES!
Thank you for being here…