Bridget Pilloud gifted me with this reading on my “Color of the Year”:
(It’s near the center of the list – but all these colors pertain, because of my mix.)
Ocean rising. Green moving to teal to blue, to purple to violet and back. Flowing.
This is a suggestion that while you experience many different moods and ideas, you see what stays the same throughout your experience.
For though the colors change, they’re made up of the same thing, water and light.
There is less pressure near the top of the ocean, where the colors are the brightest.
Expect a year of light, teeming with life, and all of the good and difficult that comes with it. Pay attention to what stays constant.
Constant in my life? After a year (or three!) of huge changes ~ ??
One thing I’ve realized/recognized/admitted(!) just this morning, is that I’ve been soul-deep and cosmically UNhappy with choices I’ve made over the years. And *that* hurt so much that I buried it so deep that I couldn’t feel it. They frequently felt like the only option available at the time, but still …
Sometimes, I picked the easy way, or the 4-year-old’s “I wanna…” way. Sometimes, it was simply the “oblivious to others” way. Once in a while, I picked what I KNEW was right, even though I also knew it wouldn’t be easy to live up to (more often recently than when I was younger – imagine that!).
Those oblivious choices have caused deep hurt to other people, too. Especially family. Now, I’m searching for ways to ‘make amends’ ~ that won’t cause more harm ~ (Is that taking on too much responsibility for other people’s emotions?)
What else is staying constant? I’m still chewing on that ~ reports as I realize them!